Whether you wake up every day dreading leaving your little ones, or love being able to still be you, pre-kiddos, make an income & provide, I'm here to dish the positive of the 9-5 working mom life!
See, I love my job & my co-workers, so it made going back to work easier for me after maternity leave. & while I enjoy getting dressed (even though I "never have anything cute to wear") & my peaceful drive to work (even in loads of traffic), my commute home is on average between 45 minutes & 1 hour & fifteen minutes. & that's not including when the weather is bad, there's an accident, or an event downtown is going on. This puts me getting home usually before 6:30 most days, giving me not much QT with my sweet girl on the weekdays.
My heart breaks a little each morning & night. Nicolina wakes up sweet as can be & so happy every morning, the same morning I'm rushing to pump, rushing to find something to wear, rushing to put on some makeup & do something with my hair, rushing to wash bottles & pump parts that I need to pack up for the day, rushing to make sure I have everything for the next 10+ hours for myself & Nicolina. This leaves me feeling sad & guilty each morning, that my time I do have with her is spent rushing through everything. It also leaves me feeling the same way at night, rushing home to give her a bath & get her ready for bed... always rushing. Not to mention I miss her meals during the week, & only typically get to feed her the purees I make for her on the weekends...
BUTTTTTT, here's the upside to all of this
Nicolina gets 1-on-1 time with Joe daily, just them! So it's no wonder "dada" comes out of her mouth 24/7. He gets done around 3 each day & works 5 minutes away from picking her up, leaving them with about 3 hours together until mom gets home. I could tell once I got back to work & Joe started to have this alone time with her, he really got to feel more connected, more in charge, & more needed.
Before, I was always home with them, unless of course I was headed out for few hours, in which case was never too long because I needed to get back home to pump. I'd generally give him the rundown "she ate last then, will probably want more at said time,"but now it's all on him to figure it out & he does a damn good job at it. It also seems like he had more confidence in knowing what it was/is Nicolina wants & needs. I'm not saying he didn't help for the duration of my maternity leave, but I was almost always there to confer with about what we thought she wanted or needed. Now instead of him asking me"do you think she's hungry?," I'm the one asking him that!
I get snapchats, photos & sometimes we FaceTime while I'm on my last pump break so I don't miss out on all the cuteness! So it's like, even though most days, I feel so sad to be away from my daughter, she's getting great quality time with her "dada" & what could be more heart warming than that?
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